I don't really know how to write about this. I've tried being witty, and it's simply falling flat. The reality is not funny. Surprising, unusual, unexpected, and leaving me feeling as though I ought better to know what to do next, yes. But funny, no.A few days after my last post, I had a miscarriage. It wasn't until three days later that I recognized what had happened. Despite being reasonably competent in knowing how to chart my cycle, I had missed the subtle signs of a possible pregnancy.
I am left, for the moment, with nothing more than emptiness. I don't know what to feel or how to grieve this completely unexpected loss.
For now, I'm simply collecting. I'm collecting information. I'm collecting ideas. I'm collecting prayers and thoughts from my friends. In a few days or a few weeks, when I'm past the shock I keep falling back into, everything will at least be together waiting for me.
terribly sorry, amy. i will be praying for clarity and direction for you. may the Lord bless and keep you,
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Amy, I am so, so sorry. I've been there. You are in my prayers. When it happened to me, someone told me to be kind to myself, and that was good advice, so I'll pass it on to you. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry. There are really no words at a time like this, but I will be praying for you.
ReplyDeletePraying for you, Amy. May the Lord grant you his comfort and PEACE.
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Big, big hugs, Amy. I got pregnant on our honeymoon and had an early miscarriage. It's important to allow yourself to grieve as much as you want to.
ReplyDeleteHang in there . . .
Amy, I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI wish I could give you a hug.
May peace be with you,
Jenny
Amy,
ReplyDeleteYou are right, there is no way to say it. It isn't funny or witty or amusing. It is just sad and confusing.
I have had two miscarriages and I know that the grieving can be difficult. Please know that prayers are being said for you.
I'm so sorry you had to experience this. I've had 3 miscarriages myself. The very first one, I didn't know I was pregnant until the miscarriage happened, and we weren't even wanting another baby at the time, but it stil devastated me. Until you've been through it, you just can't understand! And everyone handles it/grieves in different ways - there's no right or wrong way or magical amount of time that is supposed to make things better. I hope you are doing ok with it now. (I know I'm a month late in a response here!) Prayers and blessings to you.
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